7:00am

Have been totally off track since the last time I posted. Hope today is the start off being back on program. Breakfast 2 hard boiled eggs. 4 Yougart. 2 Berries. 9 _______ 6/24 Can't really say why I feel off the wagon. Kinda all started with the Easter candy but I just don't know. I did go to the doctors last week and my thyroid is out of wacky. Which unusual for me. So I am on less medicine. Hope this works.

5:30

Snack
chips 9
________
9/5
supper
burger 10
french fries 10
__________
20/-15

snack
craxker ans peanut butter 7
7/-22

doing terrible need tp get back on track.

7:00 am

Breakfast
bagel/butter 4
yougart 3
berries 0
_______________
7/23

snack
celery/cream cheese 2
2/21

lunch
soup 3
snack 3
snack 3
jello 0
______________
9/14

so I feel good about today. focusing on today not yesterdays mistakes.

12:00

Snack
celery/cream cheese 2 pts
______________
2/22

lunch
soup 3 pts
salad 2 pts
snack bar 3 pts
jello 0 pts
___________
8/14

supper
salad 2 pts
chicken 5 pts
potatoe 3 pts
corn 2 pts
turnip 0 pts
__________
12/2

unfortunatly i had another run in with easter candy. need to get back on track.

7:00

Breakfast
bagel/butter 4pts
yougart 2 pts
pineapple 0 pts
________
6/24

The start of my week(since Thursday. Weigh in) has been rocky. Hoping I can pull it together before the next weigh in.

5:30

Lunch
Mango chicken. 5
Rice 2
Salad. 2
__________
9/3

Supper
Salad. 2
Chicken. .5
Potatoes 5
Turnip. 0 pts
____________
12/-9

I have now used my weekly 49 actually 54.

12:00

Lunch
mango chicken 4pts
rice 3 pts
____________
7/5

supper
chicken 6 pts
potatoes 4 pts
salad 2pts
Turnip. 0 pts
___________
12/-7

7:00

We have a family tradition of going out to eat when it is a family members birthday. So my daughter picked a Thie resturant

supper
tempura 7 pts
soup 3 pts
Salad. 2 pts
Mango chicken. 5 pts
Rice. 3 pts
________
20/-4

My meal was so good/ I ate 1/2 of the mango chicken and have the other 1/2 for lunch

Breakfast
Donuts. 18 pts
______
18/12

What can I say the sweet demon got me.

12:00

I don't think I posted my weight loss this week down 3.6.

Lunch
tutkey/cheese sandwich. 6 pts
Chips. 4 pts
Cantelope. 0 pts
Jello. 0 pts
_____________
10/18

Snack
Veggies and dip. 2 pts
______
2/16

8:00

Yesterday was not a great day.

Breakfast
bagel/butter 4 pts
yougart 2 pts
berries 0 pts
____________
6/24

snack
celery/ cream cheese 2 pts
2/22

good so far but the day moved on

So march is national social worker month. My job had a luncheon in my honor. We had a baked potatoe bar, salad and cake. I tried VERY hard to cut the potatoe in half ( it was huge) but seriously it would not cut and I work with a bunch of germ a phobs if they saw me touching the potatoe they would freak. Yes I didn't need to day the whole thing, but please that wasn't going to happen. I will not go into the details on what I but on the potatoe. Buy it was really good. I did have a slice of cake. A corner piece with roses. On the up did I declined to take the rest of the cake home.


Supper
Pasta/chicken/ veg. 10 pts

Snack
Chips. 10 pts
Snack bar. 3 pts

Needless to say I used most of my 49 weekly pts.

well today is another day

breakfast
oatmeal 3pts
pineapple 0pts
_________
3/27

6:30

Snack
baked chips 3pts
diet soda 0 pts
___________
3/9

supper
salad 3 pts
pizza 6 pts
_________
9/0

also had more easter candy.(12 pts)

12:00

Lunch
turkey sandwich/cheese 6pts
chips 4 pts
cantelope 0 ptz
jello 0 pts
_________
10/12

7:00 am

Breakfast
bagel/butter 4 pts
yougart 2 pts
berries 0 pts
___________
6/24

Snack
Celery/cream cheese.2
_________
2/22

So enjoyed the sweetness of my berries, makes me wonder about the allure of that Easter candy yesterday. I should tell you that I was buying it to include in a gift package I need to send out. I bought 13 pts worth for myself and ended up eating an extra 10 pts. Oh well today is another day, and I am glad for those extra 49 weekly pts.

6:00

Supper
salad 3 pts
pasta/veg/chicken. 9 pts
______________
12/0

I had a little run in with Easter candy- used 25 if my weekly 49.

8:30

Snack pm
wstermelon 0
0/0

Breakfast
egg beaters 2 pts
bacon 2 pts
english muffin/butter 4 pts
_________
8/22

Lunch
tutkey,cheese sandwich 5
chips 5
___________
10/12

12:00

Snack
celery/cream cheese 2pts
___________
2/22

Lunch
salad/chicken 5 pts
cantelope 0 pts
jello 0.pts
fiber bar 2 pts
_________
7/15

Supper
Salad. 3 pts.
Chicken. 4 pts
Rice. 3 pts
Asparagus. 0 pts
Turnip. 0 pts
_________
10/5

Snack
Crackers/cream cheese. 5
5/0

7:00 am

Snack (pm)
Jello 0 pts
________"
0/0

Breakfast
English muffin/ butter. 4 pts
Yougart. 2 pts
Berries. 0 pts
___________

6/24

My thoughts on a course in weight loss

Fat is not just inert cellular tissue. It is a repository of twisted, distorted thoughts and feelings that didn't have anywhere else to go. If you remove the fat tissue but do not remove its psychic cause, them the fat might go away but the casual imprint remains. And the imprint I'm time , will attract more substance with which materially express itself.

6:00

Snack
Fortune cookie. 1 pt
__________
1/15

Supper
Salad. 3pts
Pork. 7 pts
Potatoes. 4 pts
Turnip. 1 pt
Green beans. 0 pts
_________
15/0

12:00

Lunch
Salad/chicken 5pts
Cantelope. 0 pts
snack. 2 pts
jello 0 pts
_____
7/16

7:00 am

Breakfast
English muffin/butter. 3pts
yougart. 2pts
berries. 0 pts
______________
5/25

Snack
celery/cream cheese. 2 pts
___________
2/23

My thoughts on a course in weight loss

While overeating would be seen by some as an indulgence of self, it is in fact a profound rejection of self. It is a moment of self betrayal and self punishment, and anything but a commitment to ones well being. Why would you be able to commit to a diet if you're not already consistently committed to yourself.

Central to the holistic healing of your weight issue is that you develop a new skill set with which to deal with unpleasant emotions. an emotion swept under the rug is not an emotion that goes away , it is simply an emotion that is put somewhere other than where it should be put.

The only feelings you really need to fear are those you ignor.

Your.craving for food id an emotional temper tantrum.

1:00

Lunch
Hamburger. 7
Soup with rice. 3
____________
10/13

Snack
Popcorn. 3 pts
3/10

Supper
Salad. 1 pts
Chicken. 4 pts
Rice. 5 pts
Asparagus. 0 pts
________
10/0

Snack
Watermelon. 0 pts

7:00 am

A personal victory!

So this morning I am reading the newspaper and learned my local grocery store was having double coupons up to $2.00. I had some good coupons so I decided to go. Now the grocery store on the AM is a big trigger for me. in the back of my mind i had decided to get a muffin. I would be ok it would cost me 15 pts and I had the pts. problem is the zero nutritional value. So I get my groceries (my total was about 1/2) and my last stop was the muffin, I stood there, thought it over and walked away!

Breakfast
2 waffles/butter. 5 pt
Bacon. 2 pts
Berries. 0 pts
_______________
7/23

12:00 and 6:00

The day flew by for me yesterday, friends over to stitch in the afternoon and babysitting my grandson in the evening. A perfect day.

Lunch
Ham sandwich.5 pts
Special k chips.3 pts
____________
8/9

Supper
Salad. 3 pts
Shrimp/pasta/veggies. 9
12/-3

Snack
Special k chips.5 pts
2 pudding cups.4 pts
______________
9/-12

Used extra points out of my weekly 25. Just had the munchies. I really enjoy the sun chips. I usually buy a box about every other week the whole box is about 9 pts. My friend had some so now the box is gone. Even though I smacked a little more then usual I still consider this a successful day.

7:00 am

Breakfast
Egg beaters. 2pts
Bacon. 2 pts
english muffin/butter 4 pts
berries 0 pts
__________
8/22
Having a very energetic morning. Doing a little spring cleaning. When I feel good about myself I get motivated to organize my life. Having friends over to stitch and am looking forward to that. I'm a "selfish" hostess. I don't make snacks because I don't have an afternoon snack. My friends bring their own. A little taking care of myself. When my good friend Maggee hosts she always has great veggies and of course I partake. I'm glad its veggies. Thank goodness my friend is thinking of me.

6:30

Supper
Salad. 3 pts
Shepards pie. 8 pts
______________
11/0
An interesting thing happened to me today. I did my grocery shopping and after needed to drop mail off at the post office. I went by my local micky d's and I had the incredible urge for chicken nuggets and French fries. Even though I had a meal ready to POP in the microwave. And I really like Shepards pie. I resisted even though I tried to rationalize my "desire" (I could eat my meal tomarrow ect.....) so what is it with the chicken nuggets? Anyways I feel good about myself.

12:30

Snack
Celery/cream cheese. 2 pts
2/22

Lunch
Soup with noodles.3 pts
Crackers. 4 pts
PB2 2 pts
Cantelope. 0 pts
Fiber bar. 2 pts
Jello. 0 pts
_________
1!/11

7:00 am

Breakfast
Bagel/butter. 4 pts
Yougart. 2 pts
Berries. 0 pts
____________
6/24

My thoughts on a course in weight loss

Your body is not seperate from your mind so much as it is a reflection of it. As you change your mind,you change every cell in your body.

It might seem at times that you have no control over your urge to eat-and for all practical purposes, many times you do not. But you always have free will regarding what you think, and as you begin to think differently, in time you will begin to eat differently. Your compulsion will dissolve in the presence of the Devine.

I know that I alone am responsible for cultivating a lifestyle that supports my health, my good, and my sernity. I know my body may react with compulsive behavior if I fail to proactively create a peaceful environment. I surround my body with peace so that it will be at peace.

6:30pm

Supper
Salad. 3 pts
Applebees shrimp/rice. 8
___________
11-4
Tonight was WW weigh in and I was down 2.6 oh happy day. In looking back over the week I felt I had a hood balance. Still no excercise. I did not feel deprived and had several treats. Tonight was supper out with my son, daughter and grand son. O really loved the shrimp and it had a nice kick to it. A real bang for 8 pts.

Snack
Rice crispy bar. 3 pts
3/-7
Even though I went over my pts I consider this a successful day lots of good food choices.

1:30

Lunch
Veg soup with noodles. 3
Crackers. 4
PB2 2
Fiber bar. 2
Cantelope. 0
11/7

7:00 am

Breakfast
Bagel/butter. 4
Yougart. 2
Berries. . 0
_____
6:24

snack
chickem soup. 4
Crackers. 2
______
6/18

4:00

I had a late lunch as we (my daughter and I) took a road trip to williamsburg (about 50 miles) to go to a needlework store. Treated my self to some lovely things.

Lunch

Salad. 3 pts
Steak/red pot/brocolie. 12 pts
__________
15/8

I'm not really hungary so I don't know if I'm going to eat supper.

8:00

Breakfast
Egg beaters.2pts
Bacon. 2pts
english muffin/butter 4pts
berries 0 pts
______________
8/22

6:00

Supper
Chicken nuggets.12 pts
French fries. 12 pts
_______________
24/-4

Not a good afternoon
slice of cake 15 pts
snack soze turkey sand 4 pts
______
19/-23

Don't know what to say other than tomarrow is another day.

12:00

Snack
Celery/cream cheese.2
10/20

Lunch

Soup. 3
Crackers.3
Protein bar 4
Pineapple.0
Jello 0
___________
10/10

My thoughts on a course in weight loss

An out-of-control.appetite for food originates in your mind not your body.

Like physical excercise, spiritual excercise works if you do it.

For every thought and feeling contributes either to your disease or to its healing.

If you are unkind that blocks your healing,if you withhold forgiveness, that blocks your healing.If your dishonest, that blocks your healing. Every issue in your life is related somehow to your struggle with food. Nothing is separate from who you are and what your manifesting. And that's what makes this issue in your life an invitation to become your most beautiful self-not only on the outside but on the inside ,too.

7:00 am

Breakfast
Oatmeal.3 pts
Yougart. 5pts
Berries. 0 pts
______
8/22

Had a very strange dream last night . I was eating cupcakes (probably it was because during the patient nutrician day yesterday I saw a patient pull out a package of cupcakes after she refused our soup). I remember in my dream thinking well that's it I've "cheated" so now I'll have what I want . This dream.baffled me because I don't feel this way. The old Darlene did, several years back but now I know that my weight loss journey will have its
ups and downs. And the only failure is to not move on.

5:30

Supper
Salad. 2
Pork. 5
potatoes 3
Turnip. 0
Green beans. 0
_____________
10/0

Snack
Jello. 0

I did not go to my aqua swim class tonight as I had planned. No excuses
I guess I'm not ready for that committment .

12:00

Snack
Celery/cream cheese. 2pts

We had a patient nutrician day in our lobby and we made chicken noodles soup and crackers-and of course I had to have some so I'm going to take 5 pts from weekly 25 leaving me 13

Lunch
Veg soup with noodles.3pts
Crackers. 3pts
Pineapple.0 pts
Jello.0 pts
Protein bar.4 pts
____ _____
12/10

My thoughts on a course in weight loss

There is perfection in nature, perfection in you, and perfection in food as nature created it. Your own perfection is invoked by natures perfection. A walk through nature calms and restores you emotionally, and natural food calms and restores you physically.

7:00 am

Breakfast
Oatmeal. 3 pts
Yougart. 5 pts
Berries. 0 pts
________
8/22

I have been thinking a lot about the shame I feel in regards to being overweight. My earliest memory was at a kindergarten Christmas gift exchange. I got.a bag of.lollipops and it was so embarrassing for me. Now what five year old wouldn't love a bag of lollipops? who and what planted those early seeds of shame?

6:30pm

Afternoon snack
4 multi grain crackers. 3
Cream cheese. 2
___________
5/3

Supper

Salad. 3
Pork. 5
Turnip.0
Green beans. 0
Potstoes. 3
_____________
11/-7

I took the extra.seven from my weekly 25 I have 18 left.

12:30

Lunch

6" subway (from yesterday) 9 pts
Sun chips. 5pts
_______________
14/22

Just love all those veggies!

My lunches are all made for Mon and tues. I am planning on starting supper soon. As I thought my daughter was coming for supper I bought a roast. So I'll have lot of leftovers. This may work out well since I plan an going to an aqua fitness class after work. So having a meal ready will be good.

My toughts on A Course in Weight Loss

The solution to overeating is obviously not to deny yourself food altogether;the answer is not to deny yourself at all.You don't need to forget food,run away from food, or avoid food. And the last thing you need to do if you want to stop thinking obsessively about food, is to tell yourself not to think about i!! Doing so is an invitation for such thoughts to overwhelm you.

Impatience is nothing but the fear-mind trying to convince you it's hopeless and therefore you shouldn't even try.

Dear God
Please bless the food
that sits before me
May it be filled with your spirit
and may it feed me with Your love.
May it nourish me
that I might help nourish others.
May I never forget those who have no food.
Dear God
Please remember them,too.
Amen

7:00 am

Breakfast

Southwestern
egg beaters (1 cup) 2 pts
4 slices Bacon. 2 pts
Thin bagel/1 tsp butter spread. 4 pts
Berries. 0 pts
_________
8/22

Great breakfast- tasty and filling. I already have a pot of veggies soup cooking,carrots,celery,leeks,green beans,tom,corn. This will be my lunch for the week. I cook up some whole wheat elbow MAC and add 1/2 cup to each serving. I have soup every other week. Sometimes I add meat. Most times not. It is healthy, filling and comforting.

12:00 and 6:00

Sorry.about the late post I forgot to charge my phone.

Snack
Celery and cream cheese 2
2:7
Lunch
Soup 3
Bagel and butter 4
1/2 pear.0
______________
7/16

Supper
6" subway.9
Sunchips.5
___________
14/2

8:00

I did not have a snack last night.

This is my Saturday to work and it is raining cats and dogs! Felt I needed to change up my breakfast a little.

Breakfast

Oatmeal.3
Yougart.2
Berries. 0
____________
5/25
I made packaged oatmeal and put in my small thermous so it was nice and hot when I got to work. It was very filling

6:00

Supper

Salad. .3
Creole shrimp. 5
Rice. 5
___________
13/0

Leftovers were just as delish as they were on Wed. It was nice to come home (went grocery shopping after work) and have supper ready on less than five minutes. I was able to feel full and satisfied on my 30 pts. Also I did not buy any banannas this week as I want to cut out some fruit.

12:30

Snack
Celery and cream cheese. 2

Lunch
Salad with turkey.5
Cantelope.0
Jello. 0
_____________
7/13
My thoughts on A course in weight loss

As your fear is reduced, your body will reduce itself. When you no longer fear the world so much, you will be more comfortable dwelling in it. Dwelling more comfortably in the world, you will begin to dwell more comfortably in your own skin and dwelling more comfortably in your own skin, you will subconsciously create a more comfortable body.

You have within you an internal guidance system. It is perfectly calibrated to keep the systems of your body in working order. It guides your breathing, brain functioning, digestion,and so forth. And when you were an infant, it guided your hunger and desire for food. Your guidance system in this area has admittedly been knocked out of working order, but there is nothing inherently permanent about this disorder. When your spiritual guidance system is back in order, your physical guidance system will fall back into place as well.

7:15am

Breakfast
bagel 3
pb2 2
banna 0
yougart. 5
Berries. 0
____________
10/20



Learn from yesterday,live for today, hope for tomarrow.- Albert enstein

So I got up this morning and realized I had a new start. Even though last week was great. I know there are things I can improve.
1. Cut pts. To 30
2. Watch portion size
3. Plan an excercise routine.
4. Cut out more processed foods.

7:00pm

Lost 1.6 lbs. At WW this week.
Iust admit I was a little disappointed. I've decided to cut back to 30 pts. And only plan to use 25 of my 49 weekly pts.I do eat a lot of fruit and don't measure my veggies. Which are 0 pts. Also need to come up with a plan in some excercise.

Supper

Applebees
Steak
Red pot.
Brocolie. 12 pts.
Salad. 3 pts.
____________
15/-13
I took the extra pts. I used 32 of my weekly 49. The 49 starts over tomarrow.

3:00

I continue to have a frustrating day. Nibbled on 6 lifesavers 6 and 1 oz of multi grain chips 3. Good thing it is the last day of the week and I have pts. Left from my weekly 49 for supper. It is WW meeting. Normally I weigh myself several times a week, but this week I did not. I hope the scale good is good to me. Ad I have been on program all week I need to accept what will be will be.

1:00

And my crazy day continues

9:30 snack
Celery.0 pts
Cream cheese 2
___________
2/23

Lunch
Salad with turkey 5 pts
Chex mix.3 pts
Snack bar.4
Cantelope 0
Jello.0
__________
12/11

My thoughts on A Course in weight loss
Every moment of unconscious eating is a moment when you are starving from a lack of healthy self-love, and struggling to find it elsewhere.

Dear God
my eyes have been opened to the nature of my disease
I am powerless over food,and I realize that now
I surrender to You both my paon and my compulsion
Please do for me what I cannot do for myself
Dear God, please overpower my false appetities
and cast out my fear.
I thank you for Your love,
which I know has blessed me
I thank you for your blessing,
Which I know will heal me.
And may my healing,dear God,
be of use to others
in whatever way You direct.
Amen

7:00 am

Last night I had mixed fruit and yougart.1 pt which I took from my weekly 49 I have 29 left.

Breakfast
Bagel 3
PB2 2
Bananna.0
yougart 5
berries 0
__________
10/25
crazy morning hope i can catch a breath to post more at lunch time.

6:30

Supper
Salad. 3 pts
Shrimp crelo. 5 pts
Rice. 5 pts
___________________
13/-1

On Wednesday I cook for both myself and my daughter and her hudnand. and i usually make enough to have leftovers for Friday night supper. The shrimp creole was a new recipie for me. I thought it was very good. I don't eat shrimp that often and it was very filling.
Creole shrimp and rice

1 celery rip, chopped (I used more)
1 small onion, chipped
1 small green pepper chopped
1 Tbs oil
1 can (14 1/2) diced tomatoes, drained
2 Tbs savory herb with garlic soup mix ( couldn't find so I used veg)
1 garlic clove minced
1 tsp Worcestershire sauce
1 bay leaf ( didn't have)
1/8 tsp cayenne pepper
1 pound cooked med shrimp ( I used raw)
2 cups hot cooked rice
________________
In a large skillet saute the celery, onion, and green pepper in oil until tender. Add the tomatoes,soup mix,garlic,Worcestershire sauce, bay leaf and cayenne pepper. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat, cover and simmer for 15 min. Add shrimp, heat through. Discard bay leaf. Serve. With rice.

1:30

My daughter went out and did a little retail therapy.She has been feeling frumpy since having the baby (I don't agree). Anyways on the way back to my house she picked up Subway. What a treat!

Lunch
Roast beef (6") with cheese and lots of veggies.9pts
Chips.7 pts
__________
16/12

Normally I would have the lays light chips but they didn't have any so my daughter got me the full strength.Could only ate 1/2 NOT and yes they were very good.

My thoughts on A Course on Weight Loss
To judge an aspect of yourself as ugly is to abuse yourself.

Part of your inner conflict is that whole your conscious mind feels a level of disdain for Not-Thin You , your subconscious mind feels quite at home with her.

8:30

Today is my day off from work, my daughter and grandson spend the day with me. So I waited for my daughter to get here to have breakfasts. Last night I had a rice pudding cup for snack it was 2 pts.I had one point left so I took one pt. From my weekly 49 I have 30 left.
Breakfast
Southern egg beaters 1 pt.
4 slices Bacon 2 pts.
2 tst / butter.4
1 Tbs WW cheese 0
_______________

7/28

If you haven't tried the south western eggbeaters there are FAB! Lots of flavor.

6:15

I had a frustrating afternoon at work and left an hour latter then I had planned. This is a big trigger for me. When this happens the drive calls to me. That is why I need to have my supper ready to nuk. But even though I had a meal at home I tried to rationalize having fast good. I resisted and am proud of my self. And my supper was.delish! ( same as yesterday but that's ok. Usually I will have what I cook on Sun on tues. On Mon I will make something quick. Even relying on eggs or waffles although that does not give me the veggies o like to include but then chicken nuggets and ff are pretty light in the veggies dept.

Supper
Pork. 3
Potatoes. 7
Asparagus.0
Carrots. 0
Green beans. 0
Salad. 3
________
13/1

1:00

Lunch
Turkey sandwich 6
Salad.1
Chex mix. 3
Fiber one brownie. 2
Grapes. 0
Jello. 0
________
12/14

My thoughts on A Course in Weight Loss

Dear God
Please remove the wall that I have built around me
I have built it so strong,
dear God,
That I cannot tear it down
I surrender to you
Every thought of separation,
Every feeling of fear
Every unforgiving thought.
Please, dear God
Take this burden
From me forever.
Amen

7:00

Last night I had popcorn 3 pts I took the points from my weekly 49. I have 31 left.

Breakfast

Bagel 3
PB2 2
Bananna.0
Berries. 0
Yougart. 2
_____________
7/28

Last night I lowered my insulin by 25% my blood sugar was 77. Still a little low but I tolerated it. Tonight I will lowered to 50% and see what happens.

My thoughts on A Course in Weight Loss

The weight you are seeking to let go of was added to your consciousness before it was added to your body.

5:30

Supper
Pork. 3
Potatoes. 7
Carrots. 0
Asparagus. 0
Green beans. 0
Salad. 3
_______________
13/-3
I took three points from my weekly 49 I have 34 left.

I forgot to report that as a snack last night, while watching the Oscers I had popcorn 3 pts so my daily total was 32- no it wasn't close to movie popcorn, but it was a treat.

1:15

Snack
Celery.0 pts
Cream cheese 2 pts
_____________
2/22

Lunch
Turkey sandwich 6 pts
Salad 1 pts
Chex mix 3 pts
Grapes 0 pts
Fiber one brownie 2 pts
Jello 0 pts
_______________
12/10

7:30

I woke up this morning with a low blood sugar (60) so I had a snack well bar. I should have taken a little less insulin last night. When I am on program needing less insulin is a benefit. There was a time when I took much more insulin all day long. I now only take a long lasting insulin at night. I probably could be controled by oral meds but I have had some nasty side affects in the past and I do not mind the needle it comes in a pin is actually less expensive for me, 5 pens cost me $40 and last 6 months.
Breakfast
Snack well bar 4 pts.
Bagel 3 pts.
PB 2 2 pts.
Bananna 0 pts.
Berries 0 pts.
Yougart 2 pts.
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TOT.11/24

My opinion about snack bars. You really need to read the labels. Cause with some of them you might as well eat a candy bar. I look for high protein and low sugar. The one I had today had 8 gr of protein and 6 gr sugar. A good bang for my nutritional buck.

7:00

Thoughts from a Course in weight loss

Your unhealthy eating is an act of self hate. Overeating is a form of violence against self.

There are days when we detour into darkness as we make our way toward light.

Know that the greatest successes ate often arrived at two steps forward and then a step or two back. And know that skinny people eat too many potatoe chips sometimes too.

Begin with a commitiment to be kind to yourself.

You don't have the human capacity to fix this problem

Dear God,
Please free me
from the false appetities
and take away my pain.
Take from me my compulsive self,
and show me who I am.
Dear God,
Please give me a new beginning.
Unchain my heart
so i might live
a freer life at last.
Amen

My thoughts

please know that God, or a higher power is a personal thing. It can be connected to a formal religion or not

6:30 2/26/12

Supper
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Pork 5 pts.
Home fried potatoes 5 pts
Salad. 2 pts.
Carrots. 0 pts.
Green beans 0 pts.
Asparagus.0 pts.
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12/6

as you can tell I love vegtables. and I mostly eat fresh. I buy
The vegtables that are ready to cook. Now I know they are more expensive but I only cool for myself. In the summer I do go to the farmers market. I really only like canned corn and beets. I will keep a few bags of the steamer veggies in the freezer to add chicken or left over pork for a quick sirfry.

1:30 2/26/12

Lunch
Pre made south western salad 5 pts.
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TOT. 5/17

I made a trip to Wal-Mart for my strawberries and a few things for my grandson. While I was check out the aisles what to I spy but small boxes of Valentines candy. for 10 cents. I tried to convince myself they wouldn't taste good. I like soft choclolates and usually there is only the hard carmel. In the past I might of bought 10 boxes. So I bought 1 box. And they were so good. All soft center. So it cost me 7 pts of my weekly 49 so I have 37 left. Points well spent. I feel that denying myself well only cause me to eat more. I eat many "power foods" and since I didn't use the points out of my daily total I don't feel I messed up my day.

6:45am 2/26/12

As a snack last night I had a sugar free jello cup with a squirt of whipped topping.0 pts. Also I did not eat anything in the middle of the night.

Breakfast
2 eggs. 4pts.
4 strips bacon 2 pts.
2 tst sm amt butter spread 4 pts.
Mixed fresh fruit.0 pts.
1/2 cup Greek yougart.2 pts
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12/23

on the weekends I tend to eat less dairy, I am not a milk drinker. So this morning I bulked up my breakfast with some yougart.

This morning I returned to a book that in the past has been very inspirational on leading me on my weight loss journey. And I highly reccomend it."A Course in Weight Loss-21 Spiritual Lessons For Surrendering Your Weight Forever" by Marianne Williamson

Her premises is that poor diet and lack of excercise are not the cause of your obesity the cause is your mind. Fear, loneliness and isolation feed our need to overeat. All the negative messages we feed ourselves feeds these maladaptive behaviors, love can break down these walls.

I have spent many hours and dollers searching the isles of Barnes and Nobles looking for that magic pill that will lead me to weight loss. I don't need to tell you there isn't one but this book gives me hope and inspiration.

If anyone has read this book I would love to know what you think.

Thanks for stopping by!

7:00 2/25/12

After my stitch group this afternoon I decided I could no longer live without the Rachael Ray stonewere oval serving dishes. In eggplant. Since I got my tax refund I decided to surcume to my hearts desire. After shopping I decided to go to Applebees. They have about five choices that list WW points. All I can say is DELISH!!!!!!

Supper
Salad. 2pts
Steak, red potatoes and garlic brocolie.12 pts.
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17/17

Since it was so good I am a little leary about the pts. So I decided to take 5 from my weekly 49.
Trust me they were well spent. I will make Applebees a regular eat out spot. Welcome to my three new followers. You inspire me. I so appreciate your comments. It your comments are not something.you want to share on the blog you can always email me darclerob@hotmail.com.

1:00pm 2/25/12

Lunch
Soup 3 pts.
Turkey sandwich 4 pts.
Chex snack 3 pts.
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TOT: 10/17
Went to WW with my daughter ( I weighed in on thur) it was good to hear another leader. And BRAVO to my daughter who is now 2.8 lbs her pre pregnancy weight. When I grow up I want to be just like her. My hero.

2/25/12 8:30am

Slept in today, 7:00am. Yesterday was a great food day. I did grab a few grapes after a bathroom visit. I think I was thristy and should of had a glass of water. I want to avoid night eating although it is really not a issue for me. Weekends I like to have a bigger breakfast, point wise it is not much different but its a change from my Mon-Fri fare. I see it as a treat.

2 waffles 4 pts.
4 slices bacon 2 pts.
Butter sub 2 pts.
Grapes 0 pts.
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8/27

I love bacon! I buy the Oscar myers already cooked bacon and its only 70 cals. for 4 slices and because its always "ready"its there to add some zip to sandwiches. Yes there are better protein choices but feeling like I'm eating something special is also important in making one not feel deprived.

8:00-2/24/12

Snack
Skinney cow ice cream sandwich 3/0

6:00-2/24/12

Supper
Pasta/chicken/veg stirfry 9 pts
Salad 3 pts.
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12/3

I had a busy day at work which helps to curb my compulsion to eat. It was also a frustrating day but I did not eat over it. I went grocery shopping after work. I only bought " good" food I will have to stop at another store tomarrow because there were no strawberries.I have to have my berries. I had planned to go to the Y this evening to swim but I am whipped. I have been paying my membership and haven't been since Aug.(sad and wasteful). I really enjoy swimming and I used to swim every morning. But I now go to work at 7 instead of 9 and although I get up at 3:30 I love my morning time. I plan too work on a plan that works and do the best I can until April 1st.

1:45-2/24/12

Before I forget- you can order PB2 Bell plantation they are on the internet or you can order from Netrition,Inc. 25 Corporate circle, suite 118 Albany, NY 12203 tel no: 1-888-817-2411.

Lunch- 1:40
Veg soup 1/2 cup noodles 3 pts.
Onion roll- 6 pts.
Light butter spread 2 pts.
Cantalope- 0 pts.
Jello-0 pts
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TOT 11/15
About every other week I make a crock pot full of soup- sometimes I add meat any vegtables I have . I always cook my noodles seperate and then put them into servings. I like my soup spicey. If my nose ain't running I've missed the mark. I use a carton of chicken stock (low sod.) If I've made a chuck roast in the crock pot the left overs become soup.

11:00am-2/24/12

Snack-Celery (4 stalks) 0 pts WW Cream cheese 2 pts. Tot.2 pts.9/26. I have to tell you I am a sucker for portion controled foods. I buy the WW cream cheese in the 2 oz. Cups. Keeps me honest. Easy cleanup, grab and go. I pack my breakfast, snack and lunch every day. It's not only a healthy option but also a finicial choice. I usually get to work at 7:00am- review my day, check email while I eat breakfast, snack around 9:30am lunch at 12:00, today was very busy so no snack till now. Lunch will be around 1:30 which is good since I am going grocery shopping after work. I should tell you I get up at 3:30am and have a pot of coffee. This is my favorite time of the day. I have also drank 20 oz water.

The Start of the journey

In this first post I will tell you a little about myself. I am a soon 60 year old. The funniest thing just happened. Auto correct made me 50.LOL . Anways I am divorced mom of a 34 year old son (Ryan), a 27 year old daughter (Rachel) and a new grandson 2 month old Cameron. I have also been blessed with a Son in law (Joe). I work full time as a social worker. My weight struggle has been life long. Currently I weigh 268 (5'3"). At my top weight I was 384. My lowest weight has been 248. My weight loss was a result of lifestyle changes and has taken place over the last 12 years. I have health struggles. I am a 14 year survivor of ovarian cancer. I have high BP and diabetes, both in control with meds. I would say I am an emotional eater. I currently go to weight watchers and I can tell you from the age of 10 to 18 my parents had me on many diets, pills, shots ect. But from the age of 18 to 58 I did not "diet". I joined WW because my daughter had experienced a life tragedy and wanted to go. So I came along for the ride. GOOD DECISION. I've had my UPS and downs but I do weigh less then when I started (288). I want to use this blog to record my food as I eat it and as a way to explore my feelings. Your comments and struggles are so welcomed. So to start I had a thin bagel 3 pts.2 Tbs. PB2 2 pts. Bananna 0 pts, mixed fresh berries 0 pts.1/2 cup Greek yougart 2 pts. Total 7 pts. My daily budget is 35. For those of you who don't know what PB2 is let me tell you its the greatest invention since the wheel. It's a powder, you mix 2 Tbs with 1 Tbs water-45 cals! I dare you not to love it. It's hard to find. In my area it is only available at the commisary and through mail order. I'll post the address next post.